Here are some random things I wanted to write about for quite some time, they are related in some way.
I have changed since I started college, by that I mean that I put on weight and I’m starting to get chubby. The thing is, I don’t really care, I like my new belly. I have been fit and guess what, that didn’t bring me any guys so it really doesn’t matter.
It’s not like you live forever, why not eat or drink what you want.
College does require some sacrifices, I don’t have time to cook and eat properly.
The park is 30 minutes walk from the dorm and I can’t go to gym because I’m too shy and I have low self esteem. I think that’s a good enough excuse to not exercise.
Speaking of low self esteem, I have decided that I am no longer capable of talking to people who make me feel even worse about myself than I already do.
Although there is someone I really want to talk to, I will do my best not to and I believe I can do that because I know I will feel bad afterwards and all I have to do is resist the urge to talk to that person whom I care about but who makes me feel like a piece of shit because that’s what some people do :).
I don’t want to judge anyone anymore, I don’t want to criticize people and I certainly don’t want to point out their flaws.
If I have to be alone and away from people because of all of my physical and psychical flaws then so be it. Summer is coming, 3 months of doing whatever the fuck I want.
I wish you all a great summer!!